I know I've been noticeably absent from updating my blog and being active on social media. Just the other day it felt like I was ready to get back to work. You see, people have a short attention span, and being off the social media radar too long can render one less relevant.
Remember how I told you that life has recently thrown me a fucking curve ball? That particular situation is still not good. In fact, it appears that things have taken a turn for the worse.
But that isn't the worst of it. God, I really wish it was. I was almost starting to feel functional again when I got shocking news that has caused me to break down...literally. My knees buckled and I basically fell into a crying heap on the ground. I always assumed this sort of situation was a dramatic scene used mostly in the movies, yet here I was--horrible cliche and all.
Things seem much more up on the air and I'm going to have to think about what I want to do with work moving forward. It all seems so inconsequential given my circumstances.
My first instinct is to heavily medicate myself and isolate. In fact, I am quite certain this is the path I am heading down.
Being so depressed to the extent that I am non functional is not something I am used to. It is scary, and, in a way, it forces me to admit that I am just not as strong as I thought I was. Feeling helpless is just not a great place for me.
Also, being a whiny and morose blogger is also not something I want to me known for. That's why I'm taking an extended break from work. I'm not certain what all this means for my business.
In the meantime, I could really use your support. Sending good wishes my way would be very appreciated. Also, if you want to share anything about my blog that you have particularly enjoyed, that would be really helpful to me as the future of my business is a bit up in the air.